Gaya nga ng sabi ko dati, kung ako si Superman, ikaw yung yellow sun ko. Kung ako si Batman, ikaw yung utility belt. Kung ako si Spider-Man, ikaw yung radioactive spider. At kung ako si Captain Barbell (para may local superhero naman), ikaw yung barbell.
Ikaw ang pinagmumulan ng super powers ko. Ikaw ang aking inspirasyon. Ikaw ang pinaghuhugutan ko ng lakas, mula pa noon hanggang ngayon.
Proud ako dahil anak ako ng nanay ko.
Mahal kita, Nans! Happy Nanay's day!
Frail. Scared. Hopeful. Loving. Dejected. Happy. Inspired. Despairing. Confused. Certain. Unsure. Confident. Loved. Judged. Judgmental. Affectionate. Angry. Surprised. Gifted. Insecure. Nice. Naughty. Horny. Frigid. Mirthful. Delighted. Strong. Masterful. Imaginative. Proud. Disappointed. Here. Little. Big. Tired. Lost. Searching. Mindful. Thoughtful. Faithful. Friendly. Lovable... Care to add anything? I'm sure I'm that, too.
"Sometimes all one needs is for someone to remind him or her that everything is going to be okay. Never mind the hows and the other details. People just need to believe, to trust, and they can go on."
- musings while commuting back to LB
It helps to have friends around. Despite the stresses and pressures of life, friends are able to make things bearable, even wonderful. They take your mind off things of no import and let it focus on the stuff that really matter - like happy and laughter-filled relationships.
Friends keep you hopeful, and in a world that has suffered several tragedies, that counts for a lot. To have hope means having the strength and resolve to endure and surpass obstacles.
It is because of friends that, in the midst of adversity, people are able to move on. Their support and their love help you continue on arduous journeys and laugh off problems.
I once was told that true friends are people who, when you stumble and fall, will pick you up and say, "Tatanga-tanga ka kasi eh."
After a quick, "Oo nga eh. Ulol!" I think you'll have enough will to smile and walk on.
Worked for me, at least.
She didn't.
I won't.
It's not over just yet.
 | Let's | Oct 14, '09 3:51 AM
for everyone |
I found you by the old tree sitting down, staring at the horizon. I wanted to sneak up and surprise you but you had that quizzical look on your face. So, I just smiled at the thought and let it go. Then I walked to you. “Hey! What’s up?” I said. “Oh, hi,” came your reply. You only glanced at me then immediately looked at the horizon again. You raised your arm and pointed toward you. “You see that?” you began. “See what?” My eyes followed your index finger. “There’s nothing there.” “There’s nothing, and then there’s everything,” you said. “Can you see what could be there?” “You’re in one of your moods, aren’t you?” You smirked and shook your head. I could have sworn I heard you murmuring “Moods,” under your breath. You sighed and gathered yourself up. You looked at me and smiled and you started to walk away. “Hey, where are you going?” I said as I moved to block you. “Apparently nowhere or somewhere, depending on how you look at it. I don’t know yet, really. But I’d like to find out.” You paused. “You could join me, if you want.” “Perhaps I will. Let’s go then.” “Yes. Let’s,” you said. You smiled.
Ihahatid kita Ng may buong pagmamahal Sa kung saan puno ng saya Kung saan puno ng kapayapaan Doon, ihahatid kita
Ihahatid kita Ng may buong pagmamahal Kung saan ikaw ay mangingiti Sa lahat ng makikita, sa lahat ng madadama Doon, ihahatid kita
Ihahatid kita Ng may buong pagmamahal Hawak ang iyong kamay Ako ang iyong magiging gabay Doon, ihahatid kita
Ihahatid kita At ako ay mamamaalam Dahil sa kung saan ka pupunta Sadyang ikaw ay kailangang mauna Ihahatid lang muna kita
Ihahatid kita At maiiwan muna ako dito Taglay ang buong pagmamahal sayo Ako ay ngingiti at bibitaw na Ihahatid lang muna kita
Ihahatid kita ngayon Ngunit sa pagsapit ng aking dapithapon Ako ay umaasa Na may buong pagmamahal Na susunduin mo naman ako.
*Para sa mahal kong nanay sa araw ng paglaya ng kanyang kaluluwa mula sa kanyang katawan.
Something I learned from the Pinky Webb and Edu break up:
Just keep on looking drop dead gorgeous so when you meet the other person you could just tell him to drop dead.
Have you noticed? Pinky's more smoking hot nowadays.
I don't steal because I don't want to be stolen from.
Besides, stealing from someone only shows that I believe I do not deserve my own good. It shows that I believe I have to take that which is owned by another. That's just lack consciousness.
Well, I deserve the best and I accept the best now. After all, there's plenty for everyone including me.
Better to heed the words of Ely Buendia and the Eraserheads when the thought of stealing enters my mind.
They said, "Shake your head and walk away."
Funny thing about dark corners is that people tend to avoid them out of fear of what is hidden in the dark.
But to know what's there and to shed light on dark corners, one has to actually go there, bring their own light and see for themselves. And often, they find out that there's nothing to fear in the first place. It's just that, a dark corner.
Sometimes, one could even find something of value in dark corners. It is often when venturing towards dark corners that one finds he or she has the courage within to conquer his or her fears.
I have dark corners to light and I'm on my way.
I don't have all the answers. But it's great that way. The process of getting the answers I need has been such a grand adventure.
Besides, where's the fun in knowing everything from the onset?
...when me and my barkada decide to play poker and pusoy dos from 10 p.m. to 2 a.m. and settle with a bottle of Martini (which tastes like barbecue sauce) rather than imbibe horrendous amounts of alcohol and get ourselves wasted.
But Galut said it, "Minsan di niyo ba naiisip na hindi din worth it maging lango sa alak? Gigising ka may hang-over pa at di din naman tayo makapag-usap ng matino. Masaya naman tayo ngayon di ba?"
Oo nga naman. Masaya nga naman kami non.
Don't worry when there are moments when life sucks. Life has this tendency to make it up to you in the long run and it adds a little something extra for the trouble.
Remember, when a fisherman's net is heavy it just means he has caught a lot of fish.
There're a lot to smile about in this world still.
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Today, I'm thankful. I'm alive. I have family. I have friends. I have work. I have loved another day.
What are you grateful for?
Sabi nga ng isang kaibigan ko habang naglalakad kami sa initan, "Paano mo nga naman maa-appreciate yung lilim ng punong yan (sabay turo sa puno ng acacia) kung hindi ka muna mabibilad sa init ng araw?"
Pagdating sa lilim sabi naman niya ay, "O di ngayon nagpapasalamat tayo dahil may lilim."
Oo nga naman, di ba?
| Patawad | Nov 26, '08 3:52 AM
for everyone |
Paano ba ang effective na paghingi ng tawad sa palengke at mga tiangge? Di naman sa wala akong kaalam-alam, lagi ko nakakalimutan eh, or worse, minsan nahihiya akong tumawad. Pakiramdam ko kasi, kung sa tingin ko mababa na yung presyo, ayoko na tawaran pa. Kung mahal naman at tumawad ako, yung unang pinababang presyo na ibibigay kinakagat ko na. Naiinis nalang ako pag napapunta ako sa ibang bilihan na may ganon din namang produkto pero mas mura. Eh wala na akong magagawa. Kasalanan ko din naman dahil una, tinamad ako mag-ikot at pangalawa, yun nga, bopols ako tumawad. Kachat ko ang kaibigan kong si Tin at nagbabalak kami pumunta ng Divisoria. Sa ngayon, kahit mukhang masaya, di ko aasaming pumunta ng Divisoria magisa (bukod sa malamang mawala ako at magmukhang tanga, sayang pa yung matatawad ko sana sa mga nais ko bilhin). Kailangan ko pa si Tin dahil hardcore yon tumawad (nanay na kasi. Hehe). Sabi niya siya nalang ang tatawad para sa akin pero di naman pwede laging ganon. Sabi ko nga sa kanya, ”You can’t haggle for me forever. You’d have to teach me how.” Eh di na nagreply lola mo. Kaya, please, turuan niyo ako sa sining ng pagtawad. Magagamit ko ito tiyak sa Christmas shopping.
| Awake | Jun 1, '08 10:33 PM
for everyone |
Wake up Rise from the drama of your dreams And realize them Greet awareness with surrender And live Life awaits your sweet presence Embrace it The hand that guides reaches out Take it It is a new moment Let all be love -Red’s musings 9/15/2005
Mga bagay, mithiin at events na maaaring makamit at madaluhan matapos ang May 14:
1. new cleats for football.
2. new high socks for football.
3. panonood ng Twenty Questions reading.
4. Coffee with Lotte.
5. Coffee with Donna.
6. Movie group date with Sheila and the guys.
7. Lago de Oro with Tin and the tropa.
8. Baby shower for Gingy
9. Vigan trip
10. Wawa Dam trip
11. Paguwi ng LB.
12. Pagbabalik sa Kaladkarin mode.
13. Paguwi ni Aves.
14. National Museum with Aves
15. Camiguin with Aves.
16. Polilio Island with Ilags pips
17. Paghahasik muli ng lagim kasama ang mga diyos ng Intsik.
18. Birthday ko.
19. Christmas.
20. New Year.
etc...
Ang dami palang blessings na naghihintay eh. Kaya tatapusin ko na tong pagsubok na ito.
Let's do this!
Anak ng pitumpu't pitong puting tupa naman! Sana mag May 14 na!
Lord, hindi ko pa po mawari sa ngayon kung bakit at paano ko inattract itong bwakanangsheet na challenge na ito sa buhay ko. Pero since nandito siya I guess ready na ako para harapin ito kaya salamat na din po.
The last time I felt this way (i.e. just about ready to volunteer to die) was when I was organizing the Season 2 ( o 3 ba yon? sa kawindangan ko i forget.) special show of Wazzup, Wazzup. Although hindi ko pa naman naaabot yung feeling of hopelessness na naramdaman ko matapos magrequest ng red carpet at bar stools sa props division ng ABS at malamang ako nalang ang natira sa TOC dahil lahat ng staff ay nasa greenbelt na kaya kailangan kong buhatin lahat yon. Buti nalang umapir si Kuya Bong from out of nowhere para tulungan ako. (Kuya Bong I labs you!)
There were times na I felt I was about to snap though. Pero buo pa naman ako. Humihinga pa. Buhay pa. At sabi nga nila habang may buhay may apoy, este, pagasa. At di din naman nagkulang si Father God sa pagpapaalala na suportado niya ako 100 and 10 percent. Ako lang daw kasi matigas ang ulo.
So sa lahat ng mga kaibigan kong sumuporta, nagtetext sa akin ng mga bandang 11:30 ng gabi habang ako'y nago-OT at sila'y nasa bahay na. Ang mga nagwa-ym ng mga motivational lines. Sa mga nagsasabing, "Kaya mo yan!" at "I believe in you!" when I forget to believe in myself. Salamat.
Special mention na din kay Chris at Tin na walang sawang nagtetext sa akin na magrelax lang at magpray at wag masyadong pa-gwapuhin ang mayor ko.
Special mention din kay, Nhinya, who understood why I couldn't meet her nung umuwi siya galing Singapore and for believing in me. Mauna ka na mag graduate school, Nhinya-pot. hehe.
Special mention din kay Aves. Those were very inspiring words, Aves. I can't tell you enough how grateful I am. And the e-card was the icing on the cake.
Special mention to my Banahaw family. You guys know who you are. I love you! Mwahugs!
Maraming salamat din sa mapagmahal kong mga magulang at kapatid na minove ang pagpunta sa Laiya dahil di ako makakasama. Awww moment yon for me.
At siyempre Sayo, Lord. Lupit mo magmahal talagang grow or die. O siya, I trass You na. I surrender to You. Salamat sa iyong Love. Salamat sa suporta. Salamat sa lahat.
Salamat for this award!
I deserve the best and I accept it now. Thanks for this opportunity to further refine myself.
(Frank was right, this is therapeutic. Well, back to the grinder.)
Here's an article I wrote last year based on an interview I did with Tito Frank. It was to be part of Makati's commemorative magazine. I believe it will benefit those who are working or studying. But these suggestions and tips could generally be applied in all aspects of our lives. Wellness at the Office Here are some advice and quick tips from Tito Frank Regis on how to de-stress, relax and gain some peace of mind about work. See your job as part of a whole process. See how your job contributes to the bigger picture so as to realize how important your job is. You must need to see why at this moment you have to be the one to do that. The simple feeling of confidence, knowing the perspective of your job, understanding people more will make you less reactive, less defensive, therefore, less miserable.
Do not judge the job and yourself. If this is the job you are doing now, you must see it only as a role, a very temporary role that can change anytime. And since this is a role, it is not permanent and therefore you must not compare yourself with others. Stop judging yourself. Stop judging other people. Just do your best. When you have accepted to do a job, stop thinking of the rewards and just give it your best all the time. Excellence simply means that whatever job it is that you’ve agreed to do, you always give it your best. That is the highest form of spirituality that you can give to your job. The rewards of your best are automatic by natural law. It does not have to come from the company you are working with. Your reward may come from another direction but natural law says that you get exactly what you deserve and you will get exactly what you put in.
Love your body. Get good sleep all the time. Eat the right kind of food. Exercise regularly. Do not abuse the body so that you will be more stress-resistant. Love your mind. Silencing the mind and meditation are awesome. If properly taught and the right kind of meditation is done regularly, then that will go a long way towards maintaining your stability, mental balance and psychological balance. Love your mind by cleaning it of the trash as often as you can through meditation. Love yourself and your job and make friends. It is very difficult to love other people if you do not even love yourself. How do you love yourself more? Get to know yourself better. Like yourself. Be a friend to yourself. And then everybody else will be having an easier time being your friend. Make friends. They take out a lot of stresses. Friends are a very powerful support system. The more friends you have, the less stress affects you.
Sana ako nalang si Batman...
Para ako na bahala sa lahat at paniguradong pulido ang gawa ko. Ikaw ba naman ang bigyan ng mahiwagang utility belt na naglalaman na yata ng lahat ng solusyon sa lahat ng klase ng problema sa mundo. Sikat pa ako sa chicks.
Sana ako si Spider-man...
Para may spider-sense ako upang makaiwas ako sa matitinding gulo. Pwede pa akong tumambay sa mga dingding ng mga gusali. Sikat pa ako sa chicks.
Sana ako si Shaider...
Para pag nagkakainitan na tatawagin ko na si Vavilos at pasasabugin lahat ng maaangas na gustong humassle sa akin. Sikat pa ako sa chicks, lalo na kay Ani.
Sana ako si Gokou...
Para pag gipit na ako, magsu-super saiyan ako at ikakame hame wave lahat ng gustong yumurak sa mga pangarap ko, at kaya kong iligtas ang mundo. Sikat pa ako sa mga chikiting.
Sana ako si Darna...
Para kahit nakikipagrambulan mukhang diyosa at seksi pa din ako. Sikat pa ako sa mga chi-- ay di na pala. Charing.
Pero paano ba yan hindi ako superhero, kasi si Red lang ako.
Ay wala palang "lang" dapat yon. Si Red ako, at di ko na pala kailangan maging superhero dahil kahit karaniwang tao ako - wag ka! - si Lord naman ang backer ko. Walang makakahadlang na problema sa patuloy na pagyabong ng aking sarili, kasi nga si Lord ang backer ko. Taob lahat!
At aanhin ko pa ba ang maging superhero? Sa dami ng mga kaibigan at nagmamahal sa akin na binigay ni Lord, kahit ano pang trobol o gusot yan, kayang lagpasan.
Kaya kahit tulad ngayon na mejo nakakadown ang mga pangyayari sa aking mundo, kaya ko pang ngumiti, mag joke at tumawa. Konting malas lang naman yan. Lilipas din 'ika nga. Kayang daanin sa kape at usapan. Kayang ilakad lang.
Kaya nagpapasalamat pa din ako. Dahil punong-puno pa din ng biyaya ang buhay ko. Kaya ko pang mag "Relaaaaksss, watch a movie," at ngumisi-ngisi lang. Tenk yu, Lord!
Ayoko na din palang maging superhero. Dahil ang mga superhero tila laging pasan ang buong mundo. Buti ako pasong may lupa lang buhat ko, pwede ko pa bitawan. Sisiw lang.
Naisip ko tuloy, kawawa nga naman si Batman. Siya nalang lagi ang bahala.
Sa puno't dulo din pala, sapat na na tao ako na backer si Lord. Sapat na ako maging si Red. I am good enough, kumbaga.
Kaya itong pagod na nararamdaman ko, ilalakad ko nalang muna. Maghahanap na din ako ng kainuman ng kape at kausap. I'm sure, may hinanda ng tulong ang backer ko.
Salamat po, Lord. Dahil po sa Inyo, all is swabe sa buhay ko.
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